Daily Update - 11/16/2022

 It was a nice day. The incessant waves of coldness flew over my body, seemingly extinguishing the lingering sparkle of hope I have remained and imprisoning my lifeless soul in the place of emptiness.

 Today, I went to work a bit. It wasn't too bad. I mostly fixed a few lines of code to match the output requirements my boss gave me. I think he got annoyed as I asked too many questions. But well, I couldn't help it. Then, I started to look at the issue I had for this blog website. The site is not visible at all on Google. So I checked Google Search Console and tried to index the site just to realize that DNS is not invalid. So I'll probably look at the issue tomorrow.

 Then I went to the mall with my mom to look at the latest iPhone 14. She loved it but she didn't want to pay that much so we ended up going back home and had dinner. That was pretty much for the day, quite ordinary and forgettable.

 However, I feel sad. Something crossed my mind and it was the notion of unrequited love. Have you ever had a crush on someone? Someone you know that no matter how hard you try, you can never be with them. The feeling is quite spontaneous, not consistent but sporadic and almost like you mindlessly stand there in the middle of the street in the rain, among thousands of strangers, glancing at that person, so close but so distant. And yet it makes your heart not piercingly hurt like a relationship breakup but muffled and dampened, exactly how uncomfortable you feel amid thousands of rainwater mixed with your sorrowful teardrops somehow. I used to have a crush on a classmate and I thought I forget them. But I was wrong. Their images keep popping in my heart from nowhere. Maybe my brain is not remembering but my heart is recalling those emotions. So I got curious and searched for their profile on LinkedIn. Well, I have never got the chance to talk with them so LinkedIn was the only thing I could find from knowing their name. I realized that they're no longer here in San Antonio. They graduated last semester and moved to Austin for their job. Somehow, this makes me sad and quite regretful. If that day I striked a conversation with them in person, maybe we could've been friends. They're so friendly, warm, down-to-earth and smart, something that people are so lacking these days. Even though I never talk to them, the way they smile with their friends and act just makes me feel warm and protected. They are not that good-looking but oddly I feel attached to them. I am not sure when I will get over with them. But it's probably gonna be a long time. Haizzz!

 Well, I'll stop it right there before I get too obsessed with it and go crazy.

 Good night, folks!

 John Le